Book out.

Hi all. Sean is back. Army life is shit, it sucks and will continue sucking for two years.

I just went for smu interview. I felt like i didnt really impress them much- this is what army does to you. I really miss civilian life, and somehow, i just cant forget her. Especially so when everyone else is talking to their girlfriends every night.

Why talk about it when nothing can be done? Why does it feel better after doing so? It's strange, or maybe, in the first place, does it really make me feel better? Why dont I have confidence, why dont I have guts, why cant I express myself properly under stress? Why do I have difficulty talking about anything other than games?

I hate the way everything is now.

Why cant I just be happy? Or do I have to learn to be contented?

No, content is for the weak.

But wait,


maybe that's me.

Melancholic as always.

btw, please dont make me feel like i am the only one posting here.

Though you are not from my school, I felt like posting it here.
This will be my last post before I enlist


Choices and freedom awaiting imprisonment,
One soldier solitarily facing this two week confinement.
Three pull ups, only barely can I do,
Four months training - the price of being a fool.
Five days a week I'll feel this body grow weak,
Only then I would long to be sick.
Six packs' a wish possibly fulfilled,
Yet all other desires brutally killed.
Restlessness rampant seven a week,
Portraying each moment, the image of a humble and meek.


Then comes eighth month, my birthday march at national parade,
Oh how wonderful and joyous an occasion not to celebrate?
Surely, nine or ten friends subtlely I will lose in time,
Yet only eleven or twelve acquaintances will I find.
Forget me not in whatever you do,
Remember always those fun in school.
Forget not those laughter in my presence,
Recollect even my colossal absence.


Through pain, sorrow or even torment I might feel,
Rest assured, I'll remember you.

SeaN
Bday-12081988

Some parts are odd i know, but i cant really think and i dont really have time.

A poem about ghouls

Just wanted to share with y'all an old poem I wrote during our wc3 days. Not accurate, as ghouls don't care about day or night, but I just like this poem. -ThatAngel

That Ghoul

The sky darkens, azure to gray

The filthy sun shines its last ray

The night beckons, ends the day

Now my ghouls come out to play

The moon is out, the stars shine bright

My ghouls feast deep into the night

This is their calling, this is their right

To roam the earth when there is no light

Memories.

I want to "almost die", again.

I want to tremble in the toilet for 10 minutes, I want to crash into those barricades at high speeds, I want to mow the lawn, I want my engine to stall after a turn, I want to crash 10 times but still make the same laps as the Robotic Bear, I want to rest my hand on the engine and burn my jacket, I want to consider staying at "The Outrigger" to have breakfirst in bed, I want to stay at a cheap motel and yet still bargain for better prices, I want to hear the sound of screeching tyres when we are trying to sleep. I want to warm the frozen sushi with a room heater, I want to wear shorts and slippers and go to a posh restaurant just to drink free wine, I want to go to the market and buy macadamia nuts. I want to sleep when the others are either navigating or driving, I want to play bridge when Mr. Others doesnt want to(I am not a stinking cheater), I want to knock the lamp post just before returning the car and return it like nothing happened, I want to feel the joy of buying something for someone I like, I want to not think of army or A level results, I want to feel like my worries are so far away. I want to feel like I am enjoy life,

I want to...

experience fun once again...



Too bad, we will never be able to do that again. Ever.

When you guys come back, let's meet up. I will take army leave for it. If possible,make it a monday, then maybe i can take MC.

SeaN.

Hi everyone. It's DAREALSEAN, youngest recruit of the azureclan. with effect from now, i will be enlisting in the army in like 10 days... I wont be having fun, but I hope to become an officer. I mean, since i am already inside, i do the best i can, right? More pay, good for resume, and still 2 years.

Ok that's all for now, when i have no hair, i will post again.

Rain is back!

Hello people!!! It's been awhile. I was forced to move our blog to the new blogger so that I could post. Anyway, the username is azureclan@hotmail.com, and password dzjsdzjs, as per the old one. So keep on posting, it's our way of staying in touch. Although I think only me and chim will visit this site now. Maybe sean and darius once in 2 yrs? Ok cya

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